Stream of consciousness

I’ve had a really good day today. I’ve had so many thoughts and experiences, but because I’ve been in control the emotional rollercoaster has been tolerable, even enjoyable. I think I’me just gonna publish this post under life and just describe my day.

After posting last night, I didn’t go to bed until 3 am. I don’t know why but I just felt like staying up. When I fell asleep, I had an amazing dream. It was a dream that I remember I’ve had before, (it was like deja vu). It involved another girl and I can’t for the life of me remember what she looks like but suffice it to say that it was an amazing dream and a very positive experience. I woke at 05:30 and remember repeating to myself  ”I hope I have that dream again, I’d really like to see her face again”. After waking up I managed I  to fall asleep without listening to BBC podcasts ( I normally have to have noise to fall asleep). I knew I only had 3 hours to sleep before going to work, but I felt really positive about it. 

Yes, I was tired when I woke up but I felt fresh. But in the back of mind all sorts of thought were running wild. My ex has said before thatI have an ability to convince myself of anything…….I’ve had to compromise in this relationship.

and then I fell asleep.