Well done!

Well it’s day four and I’m still dope free but it was bloody hard. I didn’t think about dope all day today but when work was over, god did I feel like a joint. But I managed to resist! My business partner smoked a joint in front of me tonight and I managed to resist the urge not to puff. Of course he asked first if it was alright if he smoked a joint and I said yes, but it smelt soooo good. I’m very proud of myself that I managed to resist the temptation.

With the regards to the break up of my relationship I’ve been alot more realistic today. Yes there is still a huge hole in my life where her love used to be, but I’m beginning to realise that she is not the only girl in the world. There must be others out there that I’m just as attracted to and who actually fits my personality better. Maybe not so controlled and more passionate. When she is your girlfriend she can be very loving, but I’m beginning to realise that she actually has a quite a stern, cold and perfectionist side to her personality. The ice queen. She has a really beautiful personality under this exterior, I just hope for her sake that she doesn’t let the perfectionist take control in her future.

A short post tonight. It’s late and I’m tired. I’ll see you tomorrow.