How much did I lie?

If you read my other posts, then you probably think that I’ve been an extremely deceitful person. Four years ago on coming to Denmark I would lie every time she asked me if I’d been smoking. But as our relationship progressed and grew I would admit it more often. In the last year or so when she has asked me if I’d been smoking, I have admitted it every time. Mind you it’s not very often that she has asked in the last year. I’ve even admitted to it voluntarily several times.

I just don’t think she realised the scale of my addiction. It’s going to be a very scary thing to tell her but I really want to once I’ve been clean for some time, even if we aren’t going out anymore. I just wish I’d stopped earlier, maybe I could have saved my relationship.